current thoughts on manifestation

March 27, 2023

it's impossible to pinpoint when i started manifesting 

this practice is deeply connected to my optimistic character 

although, it wasn't until i discovered and understood and believed the law of attraction 

that i experienced what some would call 

a spiritual awakening 

this philosophy was the explanation of why 

i had always considered myself so  

fucking lucky 

let me tell you, 

i dived deep 

scripted a bunch, 

looked at myself dead in the eye and uttered affirmations,

talked about it frequently

and absorbed a lot of content on the topic 

i’ve got to admit 

it felt nice to trust there is one 

especially because there isn't a human relation to it 

the universe is abstract 

even though i do switch it to a feminine word when speaking in portuguese or spanish

(i pay too much attention to language not to do so)

how could i attract this shit to my life? 

i wondered 

well, 

the law of attraction doesn't apply so well to rough things 

when a tragic accident happens to someone 

i never think they attracted it 

it happened, there's no deep explanation why 

now i believe that

manifestation only works because when i truly believes something will happen 

there's a higher chance that i will take actions towards that goal 

there's less fear and more confidence

the process of turning desires into reality, gradually 

that's the real beauty

being so overly focused and confident in what i was attempting to attract into my reality

not only blindsided me from the inevitable obstacles, it also made more stuck

just wanting something won't get me anywhere 

i still manifest though, as i mentioned before, it's kind of impossible not to 

it helps me to see life more like a glass half full 

as well as making me more calm, appreciative and less inflicted by my ego

but instead of investing so so so much of my time in perfectly visualizing my aspirations  

i actively work on getting them accomplished 

now, yes, energy  

i feel it too

many times things with similar frequencies of mine will enter my life and it will be amazing 

other times, my energy will crash to something that i can't run away from 

i'm ready for both

i have huge dreams 

the sum of it is like a 222 million pieces puzzle 

this article is one of them